Before I get into the real blog post, here are some obligatory Trudy photos:
|Trudy and her favourite guy.|
|LOOK AT THE SIZE OF THIS THING. It grows every day.|
|Best part of my life: Trudy smiles!|
Trudy had a check-up last Friday with the pediatrician. She weighed-in at a whopping 10 pounds, 2 ounces and has grown to 22.1 inches long! She's a monster. New developments since my last post include smiles and giggles, a fascination with our ceiling fans (I think it is the contrast of the dark wood fans on the white ceiling), and constant movement of her finger and toes. Such a cute little munchkin.
I am one week into a new eating plan. I have started exercising. Have I seen fast results? Well, not as fast as I'd like. I would like to snap my fingers and be 160 pounds again. That's the truth. But I'm realizing now that it's going to take a lot longer than a finger-snap.
October 1st came. I stepped on the scale that day for the first time in just over six weeks. This was the first me-instigated weigh-in; it came as a welcome change from the public-shaming-weigh-ins at the obstetrician's which I had weathered for all of my pregnancy.
I'd been preparing for this weigh-in almost since the moment Trudy arrived. I thought that surely I'd lost a whack of weight with GIVING BIRTH AND ALL, and that breastfeeding for almost six weeks at that point would have only helped my plight. I was prepared for something in the 180s.
What did the scale say?
THE UNIVERSE HAS A SICK SENSE OF HUMO(U)R.
Not 200 pounds, no, because that would have sent me over the edge. How hilarious that I would still technically be in the 100s but could not get much closer to a milestone for me -- passing 200 pounds on the "weigh" down. 200 was a number that I'd hoped never to see again as a not-pregnant woman. I guess I'll take 199.7 pounds and just be happy with it. It is a starting point. It is the beginning of a new journey.
So, what happened? Well, I was 207 pounds at my heaviest while pregnant. Trudy weighed 7 lbs, 2 oz when born. So... yeah, breastfeeding helped me lose 0.1 pounds. In all honesty -- I probably weighed less immediately after giving birth. I ate like a linebacker for the first six weeks of Trudy's life in order to survive. I didn't have the energy to care about what I was putting in my mouth. I quickly gained back any weight that I'd lost after giving birth. But I did what I needed to survive, so I'm not going to be down about that.
My body is holding weight in a very different way than when I was heavy before. It will be interesting to see if I can shake "my dark passenger": the front-meat-fanny-pack which appeared and grew large as Trudy grew in my stomach.
October 1st. A new start. Fresh. And easy, right? I've done this before... I know what to do!
Bryn, in his sweetness, likens my new journey to a super-hero's sequel. He told me that everyone loves a comeback. Everyone loves going to the movies to revisit an old friend on the silver screen... to see him or her battle old demons and new enemies... to receive confirmation, yet again, that no matter the size or strength of a foe, it/he/she CAN be overcome. So, here we go, folks. GOODBYE FAT, HELLO JILL: THE SEQUEL. (deep breaths)
If you're just joining my weight-loss saga now, let me provide you a summary of my lifetime experience with weight gain and loss:
Ideally, I'd like to get back to 160 pounds. While 150 was my lowest adult weight, it was a really difficult weight to achieve and maintain. At 160, I felt POWERFUL and unstoppable. I am hungry to feel that way again...
So, what's the plan?
I have read the books and blogs and am embracing the Primal Blueprint plan. In short, it is a paleo-based plan that says no dairy, no wheat, lots of protein and veggies and fruits and good fats, no refined sugars, and no processed food. The eating plan is accompanied by lifestyle suggestions that include getting lots of sleep (ha!), taking time to play, not doing chronic cardio, and lifting heavy things. Here are some images to summarize the eating plan (first) and the exercise mentality (second):
Eating-wise, this is almost exactly what I did before when I lost 110 pounds. The eating plan I came up with at that point was pieced together from a number of diets and books I'd come across at the time. The no-dairy thing is new and I'm excited to see what it will do to my body. The exercise plan is the opposite of what I was doing before. When I was in hardcore weight-loss mode, I was all about chronic cardio! This time, I will be doing lots of walking and moderate cardio (a great fit with a baby in a stroller!), lifting heavy things (a giant, ever-growing baby), and sprinting occasionally (especially once baby starts being more active). We'll see what happens.
Primal Blueprint does not advocate calorie counting. This shift has been extremely freeing and stress-reducing... but I'm worried. Can I really eat fats and nuts and as much meat as I want and not worry about gaining weight? Time will tell. My diet nowadays consists of a smoothie for breakfast (coconut water, frozen cranberries and strawberries, a banana, a couple scoops of plant-based protein powder, and a whack of spinach), nuts and veggies for a morning snack, veggies, quinoa, and some meat for lunch, an apple for an afternoon snack, and then a salad with a whack of meat and a side of veggies. Evening snack is a piece of dark chocolate and some raspberries. I'm allowing myself some quinoa because I am breastfeeding. The plan says that high-intensity athletes and breastfeeding mamas are allowed to have quinoa, wild rice, and sweet potatoes as desired. I've been focusing a lot on my water intake as well. Breastfeeding makes me so thirsty. This week, I invested in a 7-11 BIG GULP so that I don't have to refill a glass of water for myself every few hours. It is totally awesome.
|Breastfeeding essentials: pillow, tons of water, bowl full of munchies (usually nuts).|
My new diet has meant some adjustments for the Trude-ster as well. I think my change in diet has caused her to experience a bit of back-up which has resulted in some grunting. Maybe it's just a coincidence and she's going through a growth spurt. Who knows! But I've had a bit of prune juice the last few days and that seems to have helped her out. This whole breastfeeding thing is fascinating. I provide life juice for this little human! Here's hoping that my diet changes won't cause her any more discomfort. She's been a bit "yelly" lately as well... maybe she misses the processed foods and sugar? I know I do from time to time.
But honestly folks, most of the time, she just looks like this:
Exercise-wise, I've been experimenting with at-home exercise. There are a whack of hilarious and fun exercise videos on You-Tube. I've tried one so far and will report back when I find some that are actually useful. I'm in the process of developing my own routine which builds upon this 7-minute work-out. I add some free weights, medicine ball, jump rope, and resistance band activities. Right now, I'm having to modify anything that involves jumping because of my giant milky boobs. Hopefully that will change with time and I'll get back into fighting form.
Now, let's get down to the numbers. In one week I have dropped from 199.7 to 194.9. That is a loss of 4.8 pounds. Hurrah! Still a loooooooooooong way to go, but that's a good start. And that week did include one cheat meal on Saturday night when we got together with our buddies up in Ft. Lauderdale.
I'm feeling a bit anxious about making progress but am going to focus on the MOMentum I have so far and persevere. I remember being really worried when I first lost all my weight that it was just a dream and that I would go back to old fat Jill in only a matter of time. I feel right now like I was right. I am thrilled not to weigh 260 pounds but it really hard to look at pictures of my "glory days" and feel like they are memories of a life that I will never have again. The challenge here, in my weight-loss sequel, is to lose weight slowly and health-ily, and to make adjustments that are sustainable. If gaining 45 pounds was necessary to make Trudy, then it was all worth it. But who's to say I can't get back where I was AND have an amazing baby? Here's hoping it's possible.
A few other updates:
I've started to revisit my relationship with my pugs. It's been a really hard first few weeks and I found myself resenting them soon after Trudy was home. For the first time since they entered our lives, I found myself loathing them because they demanded so much of me and gave me nothing in return. Ridiculous, right? Apparently this is not uncommon for new moms. Now that I'm a bit more well-rested, I feel like a jerk and am trying to make it up to them. LOOK HOW CUTE THEY ARE.
The recent passing of a family member's beloved dog has caused me to make being kind and patient with the pugs a top priority. I'm hoping I can undo any damage I may have done in the past few weeks.
Did I mention we got a totally amazing camera a few months ago? I gave it to Bryn as a pre-Trudy present so he'd have something to take pictures with when she arrived. It's totally awesome. Take a look at this picture of an ibis. I shot it in our backyard this afternoon. We've had a lot of ibis visitors this past week on our front and back lawns.
|Bird on a wire.|
Bryn and I are both looking forward to an action-packed October. We are hosting an epic Canadian Thanksgiving dinner at our house this weekend. Next week, Bryn's sister Joellen arrives for a visit and we'll be celebrating Bryn's 33rd birthday. After that, Bryn's Mum and John come for a visit! And then our little family is off to Charlotte for Bryn's annual theory nerd conference. It will be Trudy's first time on an airplane!